I've come to the decision that I will no longer sit by and wait. I am going to talk to whomever I want to talk to. I am tired of waiting for people to say hello. I bombard them with greetings of my own. No longer will I avoid eye-contact. It's time to laugh at those who will not look at me, and it is time to laugh when something funny happens- from a squirrel inviting me to a staring contest to hearing a boy say "so is it done then? The spawning and all that?"
Today I was the big one and said hello to someone who I had been feuding with. I said hello to the man-child who had forced his way into my apartment and yelled at me, all in the name of "crush/infatuation/sex appeal." I said hello to him, and asked after him. I don't know how I felt about that, but I knew that I needed to forgive and forget, if only for my own sake. Curiouser and curiouser...
No more waiting. When I exercise physically, I hurt. It is time to leap out of my comfort zone into the zone of the unknown- my faith muscles have been a bit flabby. Time to strengthen them. Time to work.
Much love,
Victoria