Observance

I've been spending a lot of time at Kade and Deidra's house because all of the Farleys are there. I am so happy there. I am am so happy among the family. I can just sit somewhere and watch the children stream past like a school of fish, each up to their own activities. I can sit and listen to everyone, each with their own loving exchange of information, ideas, thoughts. I have realized what a blessing it is that we get t o have families here, now. It is not because we need the practice for heaven. We have families now as a blessing, to have a bit of heaven now.

I have long worried that I have been unable to make or care about friends. I make friends, but am not too worried when they leave me, even if it is indefinitely. Being with family has reminded me that I am not a complete wreck. I love them and need them and will be theirs forever. I am theirs forever, whether they want me or not, Heavenly Father has pasted the whole of us together, and there are always new additions. I love family so so much: this is the structure and organization of the eternities, and we get to have the sanctuary and safety of it now.

Everyone was where they were supposed to be. I realized(was taught) that I was where I was supposed to be. I am learning things. I learn about marriage, and am truly, truly being prepared. That sometimes strikes me as being a really obnoxious thought: the only reason that I am single is because I am being prepared. But this week I realized and was grateful for it. If I had a husband, I probably wouldn't spend the hours at the Smiths' home, listening, observing, participating. I am being groomed and wrought and refined for my opportunity. There is no shame in being where Heavenly Father has guided me.